Wells these few days can be summarized by one world F***-ed up haha no la i meant crazy, I've got presentations, essays chem pracs that contribute to I.B grades, physics prac, oral, homework.... omg ! i wonder why i'm still standing sometimes. All these and I still manage to tell everyone else that they are not busy at all and its only their imagination, nice one lar Beng!
for 10 years of slacking, of being under the academic radar, for looking at people with better grades and not giving a damn about it, oh wells its starting to take its toll now. Imagine screwing up mid-years, having people who aced all other tests tell you that its okay to fail for mid-years, that its "only" the mid years but looking at them burying their head in their textbooks and resuming mugging purely sucks. However much i love to study, I don;t want to be them!!! but what choice is there huh, if you can't beat them, join them, think of it like this, you have moved up so much in life...why stop here? Do you know that no one is affected by your actions except yourself? life goes on with everyone else, in fact they will excel you, and you'll be left there standing in no mans land, nothing to work for, no motivation to continue, truly...whats the point?
So my point is simple, its only one year more...just one year! then you have a completely different challenge, when at last its your true " second chance" where everyone starts equal again, but you jolly well know that somewhere down the road that you will have to buck up your fighting spirit again, its you against yourself first, then you against the world, don't learn to run before learning to walk, you know you're bound to trip and hurt yourself. Oh wells guess what i think i may have overdid it, sitting down now with splitting headaches and queasiness, i guess i do need a break now, just like an F1 car in a pit-stop, only you know you have to get out of the pit asap before you lose your lead!
P.s dun worry i'm fine for now, just needed to vent out before getting out of my pit.
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